Happy New year to all! The vacation is now over, and I dont want to get out of bed because I dont want to go to work because all you want to do is to sleep, sleep and sleep and be with the one you want to be with :)) Before the year end, Buch's sister and I had gone to a Salon to fix our hair and welcome the year with a new image hahah :)) She straight her hair while mine dye it with copper blonde, but it looks red :)) I always see to it that I'm attractive yet simple so people might never notice that inside me is broken. I always and always be admitted that I was taking for granted by the person who is my priority and for him I was only an option and I'd accepted the fact that I will never, never, never ever be his priority. I wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved me too, that even though things were bad in the past, he would be different this time. I've learned to settle for someone who didn't treat me the way I should be treated. I think that's life, God gave me this for a reason and purpose and I will accept every little thing life throws me and be satisfied with it.
A lot of people will spend the next year planning what they are going to wish for on November 11th, 2011 at 11:11 p.m. They will be so caught up in planning this wish they will forget to live the life they already have...all for a wish that may or may not come true. But why? Why do people constantly insist on asking for more, when all we need is right in front of us. Bored? Grab a book and sit in a tree and read it. Lonely? Call someone. We don't need to wish for the guy we might never have or the puppy we can't get because our mother is allergic. What we need is to learn to be satisfied with the life that has been given to us. There's a reason you're living the way you are, and it's your job to figure it out.
I've fought this battle more than once, but this time I'm going to win. I'm going to be perfect. A lot of times I read quotes that make me realize how fast I've been growing up. I'm trying to figure out if it's a good or bad thing, but I guess it's not really either. I mean, sometimes I think about my life, and I just want to bang my head against a wall. And it hurts because I'm doing as hard as I can in school, and I'm working my butt off in chemistry, and history and none of it seems to be paying off. I try so hard to make things run smoother, but it's never smooth enough; I'm still stretched thin.
Some days during your life time you will wake up and not want to get out of bed. There's no point, right? But on these days, it's most important that you do drag yourself out of bed, because these days are the most important days to live through. I guess it's so hard sometimes to believe that everything might just be okay, but most of the time it's hard to believe you ever thought that way in the first place. When things just go right all the time, you never learn. It takes bad feelings to understand good ones. Otherwise, you are just empty. You are going through the motions and being happy, taking for granted that someday they might leave you cold.
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