We’re only holding on to the pain because it’s all we have left. But we don’t have to. We have a choice.

I would like to believe in magic. True love. Destiny. Bippity boppity boo. Those sorts. But sometimes life makes it so hard. People get heartbroken left & right...It's just terrible. I guess I'd like to believe that there's someone out there I'll be happy with.

"So you can't sleep and eat... but the world keeps spinning and life goes on. You just have to remeber that what you are doing now is ultimately better in the long run. Eventually you will be able to move on with your life without them holding you back. You will be able to find someone that does love you and does care about how your day was. But you cannot find that person until you let go of the one that you love and when they don't come back, then you can find that person that really does complete you and makes you feel like a better person every day. The one that needs you too and the one that will love you forever."

And a semi-innapropriate, yet inspirational quote.


"When you feel like a failure, like you can't do anything right and that everyone is better than you, remember that once upon a time you were the fastest sperm."
...it's true.

because sometimes, people actually feel that way. Sometimes your life feels like it's caving on you. Sometimes people really do feel like they don't want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball and go to a place between life and death saying "I dont want to exist" isn't saying "I want to go die". It's saying "I wish that for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel". I dont think there's anything wrong with that. And if you dont know how it feels to feel this way then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

Lots of love ♥,

A coffee and A piece of biscuit...

So I'm just a regular girl trying to live in blogland. Everything is so full of random drama that I can't just do those things because I have to worry about life. COOL. But I guess this is growing up. Crying about boys that just didn't treat you right. Screaming at computer screens when people try to start drama over facebook and you know you can't fight back. The frustration of failing in work and staring at yourself in the mirror wisihing you were thinner. Being angry when the people you care about aren't there for you even after you've been there for them through everything. And I mean everything. Parents yelling at you for not going home, and again when you forget to do something they asked. I'll never know if it's just me feeling like this or if everyone else just does a really splendid time at hiding it. It's all so annoying, but I hear it doesn't even get better when you grow up. So when exactly is all this hurricane supposed to calm to the point of a light rain? Tell me please, cause I feel like I will go insane if something doesn't happen soon.

Today, I had coffeee and a piece of biscuits all for breakfast because as usual I'm late !!! and for the fact that I'm having a diet :) I really just want to run away with the people who I care most about. Just pack things up in a suitcase and walk away from everything and everyone that makes life stressful. It sounds nice to be able to live on a beach in total bliss, doesn't it? But, it wont happen. I'm not in a creative state to make up my own string of words at the moment. I'm too tired. Blah. I had just finish filing stuff, paperworks of course.

On the brighter side, it's Saturday tomorrow! weekend yihee! cheers :)) My boss gave me a 2 days vacation :) hahah. Buch and I decide to go to a mall tomorrow and I want to watch a movie because it's our 1st monthsary of the year!

I will update later again because I think I will had so much in my mind later. BRB. :)

Hugs & kisses,

To let go is not to deny, but to accept ...

More than how I've wished it for myself, to see your happiness was what I had written in that small book. :)

The circumstances had hit me and it made me dopey in the most unusual way. I never used to cry quite so much, but most of the time was spent lurking in this space we thought we could have saved as ours - longer, stronger. Made me always wanting to embrace and think of it with my heart and mind for all its love and power.

I'm drifting because it was my constant and to walk away from it is a struggle i'll always have to hurdle.After a long time of stretching my arms to try my best in embracing your world, I knew there had to be a break.And if for anything else, I'd like to remember how I asked you not to change and be the same person I saw before.  Where you are right now, i know it was brought by the demands of your world but it shouldn't have had altered the foundation we long built.

This morning I sat quietly, remembering every word written and said. We kept on slipping further and further away from one another, distance and time lengthened. Where will I find the next Christmases, birthday's and New Year's we looked forward to spending with thereof? We promised that...

I know that NOT too many nights will be wasted on mourning. To express sadness in writing proved more painful than it is said in person. And i also know that each night of sadness is true and needed and enabling me, in some small ways after so many hurtful things were said, to rebuild...If nothing else is left, I hope my love and respect will still shine in every word because you know I stood by you no matter how, what and when.I'll always love you.

Our story has always been about leaving and always coming back...And how in this length of time, we stood by together- like the anchor to the ship.I used to think that I lived a significantly imperfect life but I was such a coward to admit it.I found out I was wrong.

I learned from you that it's better to live one's life with truth and imperfection than not being able to be content in trying to be perfect endlessly. I loved you for that.

For all our differences which we manage to understand and accept along the way - what used to be the road ahead, as i see now, will no longer be a road ahead because we're on it now... I hope that time will prove me right. Only time is all i need to keep me waiting so I could see you again in this sandbox built by believing that there's tomorrow.

"Your sad eyes, dont make me alive"

You give up so many things for this person but you don't even mind because if they aren't happy, you are nothing but in pain, and their smile that comes as a result of it is totally worth it.

Our Birthday celebration last November 12, 2010 with Kristel's workmates :)

Last November 12, 2010, Kristel's boss (RG) invites us to have a dinner at any resto we want together with Kristel's workmates beacuse it's our Birthday :) But sadly, RG didn't manage to come due to hectic schedules. We dine at Pizza Hut yummy! Here's our pictures!


I'm a bit messed up on the taken photos hahaha! I guess I'm just hungry hah. :))

A beautiful nightmare

I looooove life. I know, you are probably imagining me saying this in a "drunken just got home from a party and need sleep" voice but I'm not like that. I'm completely serious about this. I love what I'm doing, and I love adventure. Not knowing what happens next, but knowing it's going to be great, even if it doesn't feel like it at the moment. I just want to leave the world a better place than I found it. Staying happy would be nice too, I always hope for happiness. I just don’t want to grow up and become numb like I have seen happen to so many people. I want to play music and teach high school and I want to live, in love, in a tiny apartment in a huge city. I want to travel and see everything I can and meet as many people as I can. I want the heels of the last pair of shoes I own as a little old lady to be worn through as evidence of a life well spent. MY life. I love so many things. Like those big hugs that engulf your whole being (and theirs) and make you literally cry tears of joy. I love smiling at strangers and seeing their whole face just change. I love walking down the street feeling powerful and beautiful, even on a bad hair day. Simple things just make me light up, inside and out. That's why I shared that list with you a few days ago. I know, it was random and I didn't really explain. But I am now. I wanted to give you guys a few days to think about it. What do YOU love about life? What makes you smile, cry, get beautifully angry, scream for joy, giggle like a little kid? What givers you a hunger for life? Just think about it, because this life? It's a beautiful war. "You enter this world knowing you are loved and leave knowing the same. What happens in between can be dealt with."

 People have asked, "where do you get your inspiration?" and "what posesses you to write the things you do?" I've thought long and hard because that's such a weighted question, but the answer - like as to many other questions our minds have to offer - is life. Living day to day with the intention of absorbing everything that is thrown at me, then stringing words together to form meaningful sentences. That's all it is. Life. But maybe some of you can't put life into words; that's fine. You have your own talent and you should persue it. Don't worry about it making others happy because this is your life and for one second it can be about you And you only.

I'm surprised you have taken the time out of what I can imagine is a horrifically busy life to read this. It is much appreciated. So hey, thanks! I hope you find some meaning is something that I said and can relate it to your everyday hardships that you may face. Happy Thursday!

Facebook status

I loved my status today hahahah! LOL :)) and on my chat list is guess who? Mr. D. O whoa! I just misses him anyways were soo good friends :)

That's all for now! got to go :) it's almost 6pm excited to go home yihee! :)

Happiness is a Journey :))

I"m going to post a positive one today since I'm starting to learn the new phrase of my life, "Goodbye yesterday". That's the new phrase I'm going to try to live by becuase really, how often can you take back or fix what you did the day before? Like never.

"One day at a time this is enough. Do not look back and grieve for the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering"

I'm always a big fan of "Spongebob Squarepants" except for the fact that he is cute and funny there's a lot from him that I admire :) Not only for his stupid yet funny jokes he's a good and loyal friend of Patrick Star.



I'm happy everytime I watched this creatures :))

I ♥ THEM

These last few days have been amazing. I had so much happen that I don't even know what to write about. Over all it was an eventful start to an amazing weekend. A lot happened, but if I need to I will write about it in a different post. I post pictures so this time it will be different :)