To let go is not to deny, but to accept ...

More than how I've wished it for myself, to see your happiness was what I had written in that small book. :)

The circumstances had hit me and it made me dopey in the most unusual way. I never used to cry quite so much, but most of the time was spent lurking in this space we thought we could have saved as ours - longer, stronger. Made me always wanting to embrace and think of it with my heart and mind for all its love and power.

I'm drifting because it was my constant and to walk away from it is a struggle i'll always have to hurdle.After a long time of stretching my arms to try my best in embracing your world, I knew there had to be a break.And if for anything else, I'd like to remember how I asked you not to change and be the same person I saw before.  Where you are right now, i know it was brought by the demands of your world but it shouldn't have had altered the foundation we long built.

This morning I sat quietly, remembering every word written and said. We kept on slipping further and further away from one another, distance and time lengthened. Where will I find the next Christmases, birthday's and New Year's we looked forward to spending with thereof? We promised that...

I know that NOT too many nights will be wasted on mourning. To express sadness in writing proved more painful than it is said in person. And i also know that each night of sadness is true and needed and enabling me, in some small ways after so many hurtful things were said, to rebuild...If nothing else is left, I hope my love and respect will still shine in every word because you know I stood by you no matter how, what and when.I'll always love you.

Our story has always been about leaving and always coming back...And how in this length of time, we stood by together- like the anchor to the ship.I used to think that I lived a significantly imperfect life but I was such a coward to admit it.I found out I was wrong.

I learned from you that it's better to live one's life with truth and imperfection than not being able to be content in trying to be perfect endlessly. I loved you for that.

For all our differences which we manage to understand and accept along the way - what used to be the road ahead, as i see now, will no longer be a road ahead because we're on it now... I hope that time will prove me right. Only time is all i need to keep me waiting so I could see you again in this sandbox built by believing that there's tomorrow.

"Your sad eyes, dont make me alive"

You give up so many things for this person but you don't even mind because if they aren't happy, you are nothing but in pain, and their smile that comes as a result of it is totally worth it.