Your whole life you've never taken shit from anyone and all of a sudden his apologies mean the world to you. Not because you've accepted his wrong doings, but because you have learned to work around them. Suddenly that wall you've spent so long building and perfecting is becoming a struggle to keep up with and is quickly coming down. You're in love, and you're enjoying every moment.
Same boy, same story. Unrequited feelings. Misunderstood personality. Constantly thinking about him. Brown hair, brown eyes, bright laugh that brings a smile to my face. . Staying up until 2 a.m. talking about anything. But by default, because I like him, he doesn't like me, I guess.
I wouldn't dare ruin my make-up with tears but the emotional pain is tearing me up inside. As he rubs my back, as he flirts, as I think about it all while at the same time I'm a failure at my work. I think about getting up, walking out and away from the one who refuses to trust me yet finds it safe to flirt with me until the moment that I break down. But what would that prove? Nothing. Which is exactly what I have to lose...
There's a chance that he's talking about me, but I'm not setting myself up for anymore pain. So for now I will assume it's her that he's talking about.
I really hope today will be a good day though all the signs point in the wrong direction, and it all started last night with his unfaithful decision of broken trust and testy lacks of the ability to love.
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